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deadletters (cw: they are suicide notes)
[There is a neat stack of letters in Bruno's trunk. Most of them are addressed; the one on top is not. It reads:]
To everyone:
If you’re reading this, then I’m dead. I'm hoping I'll be able to tell Loki where these are, but if you had to go looking - sorry about that.
First off, I did this myself. I picked the poison, I mashed it up, and I drank it. No one else was involved at all. Loki was only there at the end. I’m sorry, I know it probably would have been simpler if I'd just died alone, but the vision says no.I'm glad You know he wouldn't hurt me anyone, anyway. If this causes a trial, just vote for me. Please don’t fight for hours about it again. I don’t want to cause any more problems for anyone.
If you’re upset, all I can say is that I’m sorry. This is why they always called me a curse, you know? My visions don’t ever do anything good for anybody. I guess it’s sort of fitting that I did it to myself in the end.
But it’s fine. Even if I hadn’t had the vision - I want my family to be safe. I need them to be safe, and I need all of you to be safe too. It's fine if I have to die to make that happen. And now you’ll all have a whole week free, just like back at the beginning! That’s great, right? You'll have fun! I already know there's going to be some kind of skating party, so have a good time!
Even with all of the awful things that have happened here, this is also the best that my life has been for years. Even before the walls, I never had friends outside of the family. I owe that to all of you. This is the only thing I can really do for you guys, so I'm happy to do it.
Please - you all have to get out of this. I know our group has its problems, but I really believe you can all do it if you just pull together. Be well, all of you. Don’t let anyone else die.
Con cariño,
Bruno Madrigal
[There’s also a hand-stitched stuffed jaguar with a bow tied around its neck. Tucked into the bow are three letters: one for “Mirabel”, one for “Dolores”, and one labeled "Los Madrigals", along with an open note that reads:]
If anybody here ever gets the chance to bring this back to my family, I’d really appreciate it. Please make sure you give Mirabel and Dolores their letters directly, bring Parcito here back to Antonio, and please don’t tell the rest of the family about the thing with the walls. Or any things, actually. I’m going to let Dolores decide about the wall thing, but I'd rather none of them knew about how I died.
To everyone:
If you’re reading this, then I’m dead. I'm hoping I'll be able to tell Loki where these are, but if you had to go looking - sorry about that.
First off, I did this myself. I picked the poison, I mashed it up, and I drank it. No one else was involved at all. Loki was only there at the end. I’m sorry, I know it probably would have been simpler if I'd just died alone, but the vision says no.
If you’re upset, all I can say is that I’m sorry. This is why they always called me a curse, you know? My visions don’t ever do anything good for anybody. I guess it’s sort of fitting that I did it to myself in the end.
But it’s fine. Even if I hadn’t had the vision - I want my family to be safe. I need them to be safe, and I need all of you to be safe too. It's fine if I have to die to make that happen. And now you’ll all have a whole week free, just like back at the beginning! That’s great, right? You'll have fun! I already know there's going to be some kind of skating party, so have a good time!
Even with all of the awful things that have happened here, this is also the best that my life has been for years. Even before the walls, I never had friends outside of the family. I owe that to all of you. This is the only thing I can really do for you guys, so I'm happy to do it.
Please - you all have to get out of this. I know our group has its problems, but I really believe you can all do it if you just pull together. Be well, all of you. Don’t let anyone else die.
Con cariño,
Bruno Madrigal
[There’s also a hand-stitched stuffed jaguar with a bow tied around its neck. Tucked into the bow are three letters: one for “Mirabel”, one for “Dolores”, and one labeled "Los Madrigals", along with an open note that reads:]
If anybody here ever gets the chance to bring this back to my family, I’d really appreciate it. Please make sure you give Mirabel and Dolores their letters directly, bring Parcito here back to Antonio, and please don’t tell the rest of the family about the thing with the walls. Or any things, actually. I’m going to let Dolores decide about the wall thing, but I'd rather none of them knew about how I died.
Mei
I’m sorry. I know you wanted to stop anybody from dying at all. But hey - at least it’s only one person now! That’s fifty percent better than usual!
I can’t tell the fortune with cards, but I think those two the other day were really spot-on. You're so important to everybody here - there's not a lot of kind people like you out there in general, you know? They need you. I don't know how we'd keep going if anything ever happened to you.
I know they’ll all do whatever they can to keep you safe. Still, please be careful. Maybe you could stick with Loki for a little while? He’ll protect you, and I think it might be good for him to have somebody to look out for. Ask him to help you learn to skate. It looked like you'd both have a good time doing that.
Don't feel obligated, but if you're willing - could you feed my rats? They don't need much; they can take care of themselves for the most part. Chiffon does need fed and walked, but I know that's a lot to leave you with. Ask someone else if you need help. I really mean that, okay?
I really am sorry, Mei.
Hubert
I told you already, but it really did mean a lot to me. I gave up on being able to do anything useful decades ago. Even if I never got to use it, the idea that I could...it made me feel a little better about myself for a little while. Thank you for that.
And forgive me if I did something stupid with the poison! I can hear you now talking about how it was amateurish - I know you’d know better. You’ve probably got something that could kill me faster in your pocket right now! But I'm not going to ask you for advice. I don't want anyone to be able to say that you had anything to do with it. And - well, I'm sure I can't lie to you, but if I could, I wouldn't want you feeling responsible later.
Anyway, don't worry about what's left. I'll make sure to get rid of whatever dishes I use. Can't have anyone else using them accidentally.
I know you can get everyone out of here. I know you'll do your best - but be careful, too. Take care of yourself, make sure you sleep and eat and all of that. It won’t do anybody any good if you get too run down.
Bryn
Please be careful. I honestly don’t know if I think anybody here could take you in a fight, but you know, better to be safe than sorry. Also, maybe you could work with Hubert on some stuff? I know you don't really like him, but I think you're sort of alike - you could really rain down hell if you tried. Anyway, it isn’t entirely finished, but here’s some reading material. Hope you like it.
[It’s like, two and a half seasons of telenovela. Parts of it are illustrated. Bruno was a good artist, who knew.]
Orthrus
On second thought, I’ll also understand if you don’t buy me any. Back home, I’d have lost out on a proper church burial for this, and that's for someone -
My point is, don’t feel obligated.
And don’t be too hard on yourself, okay? I think you take on a lot of responsibility for the kids here, and that's not just on you - I should’ve been looking after them too, you know? We all should’ve been. Make sure Mei enjoys this week. I’m worried about her. Be safe yourself as well.
Oh, and please help Mei take care of Chiffon! I’m worried she won’t ask for help even if she wants it.
Nuadha
I’m sorry, that was an awful joke. Really, though, it’s fine. Thanks for listening to me talk about all my family stuff - I think I sort of needed that. I hope you and Baldr stay safe. I’m a little worried that it might be dangerous, you spying on that patron like that. I know it’s good for the group, but make sure to take care of yourself too, okay?
Félix
See, this is why people don’t like my prophecies. Does it make a little more sense now? Still, I did appreciate you getting upset on my behalf. It’s been a long time since anyone did that - it was nice.
I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you this, but stay safe. Honestly, I think I feel a little more like you do about Heisenberg than like Loki or Baldr, but I still think you should be open to working with him if it’ll help you. It’s not worth dying over.
Katsuya
Please be safe here. Look out for everyone as best as you can, sure, but also be safe. I think a lot of people here maybe aren’t that good at looking after themselves. That’s probably a stupid thing for me to say in this exact moment, but it’s true!
Baldr
Patchouli
Somnus
Actually, I guess that’s whatAnyway, I know you’ve got a lot of responsibilities and all that, but you should try and do stuff for yourself too. At least while you’re here away from it all. That kind of pressure can really get to you, I know, but you're still a person too. Maybe try actually ice skating instead of floating. You know that's cheating, right?
…also, I would really appreciate it if you continued not letting your bird hunt any of my rats. I told them about him, but just in case.